Week 13 of 2013

                      March ended so quickly and it is going to be April then May and our mid-terms exams. Time moves so fast when you have a big day or a big exam coming up at the end of the year . But surprisingly form 3 was the best year of my life even though there was PMR . This whole weeks has really been really boring , its not that I miss school but I had nothing to do so I went to my computer sat down and watch the whole harry potter movies from the sorcerer's stone to Deathly hallows part 2. After 3 days of harry potter and tuition , I was so beat and I managed to finish the harry potter series and moved on to Lord Of the Rings   it was amazing watching both shows from the beginning to the end and had nothing to worry about. But when something fun happens it always has to end in a sad way. My sad ending is I have SCHOOL TOMORROW. I just cant go to school with all the magic and killing and everything in my mind I feel so filled with knowledge that I don't even need. But I'm still happy I manage to reminiscent on all the nice memories of me and my family watching those movies. I really feel disjointed in  my self for not taking the time to read and follow up on my studies especially my weak subjects and the subjects that I have to improve on. I'm glad I got all this wildness inside my body to get out before the mid-terms come .Because after that it would be trials and then the real deal. I just hope I can focus more and not get hung up on all this awesome movies that are coming out. thats all for this week , see you next week :)

Week 12 of 2013

                 Last week of March, I totally forgotten to post yesterday because of all the holiday time D: . Im so sorry teacher my bad D: . so I had a really interesting week I went to a librarian camp. My first librarian camp and I have to say it was AWESOME the race and it helps improve your thinking skills which is also AWESOME . I had a really good time at the KLCC tower which I haven't been in ages. Overall I had a AWESOME time and its a good way to start your holiday. It seems my sister is enjoying her self before her finals which is in 2-3 months I think. I really look up to my sister as a role model. if you ask me she is the person I admire most , ha ha ha I wrote it in my essay in form 4. I just miss her so much to tell her and after she finishes her university I don't think I would see her that often D: . especially when I'm going off to UK in 2 years time. I feel so jealous of her traveling every where seeing old buildings meeting new people eating strange food and everything it just makes me feel so jealous after she post it all on facebook D: My timetable for this week of holiday would be studying and then playing then project then sleeping then repeat the whole cycle over and over and over again :P I'm afraid that my mom is right and that I cant focus that well and especially when my IPOD is bugging me ha ha ha. what I really wanted this holiday  is to relax one last time but my parents say your doing awful and your grades are so bad even after I got 2 A+ . I felt really sad after they said that is like they don't believe in me. Its so weird when they nag and nag and nag then later they say this at the last to finish their sentence "its your future not mine". I will prove to my mom that I'm not useless and I will show her what I can do and what I will do and that I will go to my dream University , University of Exeter and become a best doctor or chemical engineering. ROCK ON TEACHER "NEVER CHANGE" #Bestteacherever. that's all I have to say this week see you next week :)

Week 11 of 2013

                         Third week of march, its been a weird week for me as I had some good moments and some  really bad moments. If you ask me I would love to listen to good news before the bad new because I would still have something that will cheer me up :) First of all I was really happy to score 96 for my modern math exam which is really easy and I could have gotten 100 for it but because of a silly mistake I could not get it. I was really happy when I notice my studying and doing all my homework is paying off as I kept on getting better results ( better than my form 4 results) sadly I could not think of why am I failing my chemistry the only subject I love more than maths and of all subjects I failed that instead of failing sejarah .My sister was really happy when she heard I almost got 100 for my maths and started to pass for my sejarah and I notice she talks to me because she is lonely there when all her friends are graduating and starting their carriers and I don't mind having someone to come back to that wants to hear about my day then my parents kept on badgering me on my results and why am I not doing better (their expectations 80%). And now of course the bad news which of all this is my brother he and his nonsense. if you ask him what does he call studying he would say studying at least 2 hours or more and doing homework everyday. But when my mom starts to scold him on why he is not studying he says he did when they were out : but of course boys always play computer when they can and when their parents are out. So of course my parents know that and brother knows that but my father has to always start to complain on why your little brother is trying and why are you not trying and my brother defends himself with saying all the bad things I do which is watching movies on my Ipod (during the night) which he says during when they go out and other things . It just really upsets me and spoils the whole weekend for me and especially when its on Sunday and I cant concentrate when tomorrow is a school day and I just build a wall and just stop talking to parents as they kept on going about why I'm not studying when I was studying right in front of them. The pain and anger keeps boiling inside of me and I just start to avoid it. I just notice something really weird , I saw this somewhere it  says " we are afraid to change because will put expectations on ourselves that is why we try our best to destroy it so we wont have to deal with it" it goes something like that and I can relate to that.But I need to move on and concentrate for my big final which is not far away :) thats all for this week see you next week .

Week 10 of 2013

                        Second week of March , I could not keep up with being a vegetarian . I'm really sad because my dad keep buying meat and pork and beef when I specifically told him not to and of course my mom said we have to finish it before it goes bad D: . So as I just followed my semi vegan food for 3 days and the next thing I know we are having leftovers and of course most of them is meat and very little Vegetables and I had to eat something so I ended up eating meat.I felt really disappointed that I could not have something in common with my sister besides being related and all. My sister kept on laughing as my mom told her all about my big adventure on being a vegan and everything , and she was really proud I lasted for 3 days without meat :) I told her about my modern math exam which went really well and was hoping that I would get full marks on it ; she was really happy for me and ask me to concentrate on my add math and sejarah now. I think I did really well on keeping a straight mind during exam and trying my best to complete and remember what I have learnt . I just hope I do really well this term and continue doing much better for my next term exam before trials . I watched this chemistry video about all this cool experiments and wonder to my self why we could not do this is school ; at first it looked really dangerous and as I went on looking some of the experiments are really cool and fun to do and it will also educate students on what to do and what will happened. I really think if  they would do some of this experiments in school it will help the students to pay more attention in class and get them more excited for chemistry lessons and doing better in their chemistry exam. I just hope I get to see my sister soon even though I would regret it after a couple of months . I hate the way she annoys me but its fun to be around and her friends. One of these days you might learn something new from her friends or from her experience. thats all I have for this week see you next week . :)

Week 9 of 2013

                           First week of March , its been an exciting week even though next week we would be siting for your exam .Especially, when the first day is history and all you know is the first chapter and its really hard to remember.When I think of history I think of His Story in the movie titled "........"I have forgotten the title of the movie but it is really good. some part of the movie it showed how the teacher helps the student to understand history better and in their own way.I really think the students would score better and understand why history is so important . I had this really weird thing happened to me this week it all started with my mom telling my sister about my life what happened to me and stuff I don't know why but at the end of the day we started to send each other messages on Facebook about our day and what we did and other things. One day she talked about fasting for lent , and she told me what it meant when Jesus went into the desert to fast for 40 days and 40 nights being without food where Satan tempted him in every way Jesus denied that Satan is god and sending him away each time with a passage from the bible.So my sister and I are fasting till Easter which is along time, so she said we would only eat vegetables no chicken , pork , beef or fish .So she did became a strict vegetarian but as for me I could not help but eat everything except chicken , pork , beef and fish BUT I still ate eggs and garlic and other stuff. Even though my sister came at me surprisingly I still really like her and admire her .I still remember when I was in form 3 and form 4 where she would come back every summer holiday have fun and keep pushing me to study. I really hated that but she did it with her free time and she does this to help my parents and mostly preparing me for my form 5 days. I'm going to miss her this year as she would only be coming back on Christmas instead on summer, I could really used her help in my study's . My mom warned me about this because she is finishing her final year and graduating next year.I really take my sister's advice seriously not just because I admire her but because it comes from her heart. But surprisingly I cant say I feel the same about my brother , I don't feel sad as he would be going to UK next year to further his study's. I'm going to embarrass my sister at her graduation as it is the duty of a brother to do so, wearing a T-shirt with her picture on it and screaming as she goes on to the stage like a mad man would really make my day. that's all for this week see you next week.